episode how old is your soul? mine = 10... XD

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it was not fun whenever u choose to walk away from me and i choose to walk away from you.
i can't and i hate to turn back time. 
it wasn't me. i chose to think deeply before i made that huge-stupid-confession.
deeply means it takes time to breath out all my feelings but then the confession didn't work so well.
it was my mistake. i've admit. i've sorry for ruin our friendship.
that's why i told you to forget about it. didn't mean that u were rejected.
once i start to chose you to be my best buddy last 8 years, i chose because i need a role model to beat my own  negative side. i need someone to explain why all the shitty always happened to me especially in relationships.
now, i grown up and so do you. i told every single stories from my view either positive and negative. we shared a lot of stories. 
i know some of the your secrets and so do you.
we shared same principles,same visions and same mentality.
that's why i chose u to be my best buddy 8 years ago and now you still my best buddy even i keep my mouth shut and i hate i'm losing touch to debate with you now.
blame it to all school works and all the pressure i keep it inside my heart.
the symptoms happened because i need to work it hard to achieve my own goals.
return back to school and facing the hard-cold-sensitive students reminds me how stupid i am whenever i was their age. i'm struggling to be fair to them and to myself either. its all about me. i'm sorry for being so selfish.
i hate to say sorry since the first sorry will bring to another sorry and sorry and sorry in the future.
that's all for today. 
please check my comprehension and give the best marks. be fair enuff to me. tQ. =)

episod lantak kau, aku pedulik hape

berdepan dengan pelajar-pelajar yang berlagak bagus tak kene pada tempatnya,
menyebabkan aku rasa malas nak mengajar..
tengok! tak pasal-pasal i chose to be the one yang bukan aku.
persekitaran sekeliling yang suke menuding jari ke sana ke mari without solution ni menyebabkan aku rasa menyampah.
menyampah sampai aku nak sampah2kan je orang2 tersebut..
marah dikritik sampai down spirit, yang kau kritik orang like u're the boss takpe pulak??
bile i chose to speak out my ideas, the others will shock with my so-called rudeness..
owh please.. please..
please.. kalo korang tak bersedia untuk menerima kutukan bertalu-talu.. 
janganlah start mengutuk orang secara tegar..
dare to accept anything yang orang cakap pasal u..
jangan dok kecoh sekejap dengan orang ni..
sekejap kecoh dengan orang ni..
semua orang salah, aku je betul la kalo camtu..


bila ditegur, tak dengar..
bila tak dilayan, kata aku tak concern..
bila dah naik tangan, cakap aku tak sayang.
bila membebel, buat muke menyampah dengan aku..
bila aku ajar taknak dengar..
bila aku tak ajar, kate aku tak pandai..
bila aku tunjuk ajar, kate aku berlagak..
hell yeah.. ko sorang je yang bagus..
ko dan aku dibesarkan dalam satu situasi yang berbeza..
kalo ko rase ko takleh adapt dalam kelas aku..
think twice before u change ur class before..
think twice to accept all the challenges..
i wasnt u're mom who pampered u all those time.
i've 38 students x 6 class, if u want to talk about craps.. 
please think more than twice young man..


kalau dengan cabaran itu, kau boleh berjaya..
aku rela mengajar dengan kebencian kau terhadap aku supaya kau sedar manusia tak akan berjaya dengan memberi alasan semata-mata..
young man, ko tau apa yang patut ko buat?
belajar adab menuntut ilmu..
belajar camne nak terima kelemahan orang lain tanpa memalukan diri sendiri..
aku doakan supaya ko akan ingat aku sampai bila2 in a good way..
to be succeed, u must fail once.
do the correction and move on.
stick with ur problems wasn't my choice.. so please deal with it. i'm not ur mum.TQ