episode hiding

it was not fun whenever u choose to walk away from me and i choose to walk away from you.
i can't and i hate to turn back time. 
it wasn't me. i chose to think deeply before i made that huge-stupid-confession.
deeply means it takes time to breath out all my feelings but then the confession didn't work so well.
it was my mistake. i've admit. i've sorry for ruin our friendship.
that's why i told you to forget about it. didn't mean that u were rejected.
once i start to chose you to be my best buddy last 8 years, i chose because i need a role model to beat my own  negative side. i need someone to explain why all the shitty always happened to me especially in relationships.
now, i grown up and so do you. i told every single stories from my view either positive and negative. we shared a lot of stories. 
i know some of the your secrets and so do you.
we shared same principles,same visions and same mentality.
that's why i chose u to be my best buddy 8 years ago and now you still my best buddy even i keep my mouth shut and i hate i'm losing touch to debate with you now.
blame it to all school works and all the pressure i keep it inside my heart.
the symptoms happened because i need to work it hard to achieve my own goals.
return back to school and facing the hard-cold-sensitive students reminds me how stupid i am whenever i was their age. i'm struggling to be fair to them and to myself either. its all about me. i'm sorry for being so selfish.
i hate to say sorry since the first sorry will bring to another sorry and sorry and sorry in the future.
that's all for today. 
please check my comprehension and give the best marks. be fair enuff to me. tQ. =)